It’s that time of year where you start feeling even more lonely than ever.
It’s the time of my life where I felt more lonely than ever.
Why is never anyone here to talk? Why am I always so Alone and lonely? Why the hell is everyone so fucking blind.
i think the saddest type of crying is when the person is saying completely nothing but tears are coming out of there eyes and then you know they’ve really been hurt
the notes
My heart hurts when I read this because it’s 100% true
School starts in 7 hours, and I’m sitting here. Exhausted, thinking about how fucked up and depressed and suicidal I am. And nobody cares. Nobody cares how I am. They think I’m stupid, useless, worthless.
They’re right, I’m not doing my homework and I’m not learning. But that’s because I think about how I can pass my life. How can I be happy again. I’m crying because everybody hates me. That’s what I’m doing instead of schoolwork. I’m crying about school destroyes me. I’m paralyzed.
My life is a circle of hell. And I can’t find the way out of it.
I just feel like I’m in the ending routine phase in my life, that phase I never wanted to enter. I believed as a child, that when I’m older, I will have an exciting live, that I will follow my dreams, having fun in life and make journeys around the world, just doing things I love. And my job will be something that I like.
But now I’m here.
I never lived my life like I want. Always the second choice, always the follower, never the important one. I live my life in an radius of 50km. just the way from my work to my home. I never visited other countrys, feels like fate I doing everything against it. My hopes and wishes aren’t meant to come true.
I’m living the most boring life that anyone can have. Going to work, going home, eating, sleeping, waking up an going to work again.
I wasn’t ever the spontanous person, nowdays I’m wondering if I ever was really happy in life, I never celebrated my bithdays because I was always to poor to party, or I thougt I have just nobody to celebrate with.
Eyerybody says it isn’t just my time.
But doing the shit I want and I can’t have since 10 years, living my dreams since 10 years. They. Don’t. Know. How. I Feel.
I’m just feeling so alone. Not even one person on tumblr cares.
something romantic: necklace
something perfect: travel with you.. holidays with you.. I’m very sad austria didn’t happened
something important: don’t leave me
